Stuck at a Crossroads

Am I back? Am I done? I don't know...

It’s been over a month since I last wrote. I’ve had ideas for stuff to write, but I haven’t wanted to write. It’s weird. I don’t even know why I’m typing this. Maybe I’m just trying to get out this writing rut? I honestly don’t know.

Let’s try to dissect why I haven’t felt like writing….

We’re in the throes of the school year now. I’m tired. I’m always tired. I don’t even feel like watching a movie, let alone write about them. Maybe the inspiration will return soon? I hope it does.

As depressing as this essay seems, life is good. I may be tired, but I’m happy. The family is in a great spot. The football is good. Alien: Earth is really good. Maybe I’m not writing because I’d rather watch football and Alien: Earth. So please don’t misinterpret this as something is wrong. Almost everything about the micro of life is actually fantastic.

There’s so much going on in the country and it’s bad. It’s a dark moment of history. I hate it. How can I write about movies when there are more important topics to address? But I don’t even want to publicly talk about those things. I’m not even sure how to properly address them on a platform like this.

Where do we go from here?

I thought about shutting down this page, but there are pieces I’ve written that I’m really damn proud of. I don’t want to lose those. What if the inspiration returns? I don’t want to start from scratch. Charlie Don’t Surf isn’t going away…for now.

If there is a future for me writing on Substack, I want it to be completely free. Thanks to my family who are paid subscribers, but I want this to be a hobby. I want it to strictly be about a passion for movies. Those changes have mostly been made in the settings.

Here’s a movie that I would love to write about when the inspiration returns: Sinners. Everyone should watch Sinners. Hell of a movie with so many layers. Might be the best one of the year. I’ve also thought about writing about football movies, the World Champion Boxer from Omaha, and Ferris Bueller. Someday, maybe…

You probably haven’t wondered where I’ve been, but I’m around. I’m just in the wilderness when it comes to writing. Maybe I’ll walk out of it soon. That would be nice.